Been thinking alot for the past few days about many many things... but one thing, i kept getting flashbacks from what i saw on sat... all the time. It might have affected me emotionally deeply that day but as i come to terms with it- with what happened, what was said about u and her to me, the picture of everything came clear.. at least, on my part. Was i the one who played with fire?
People change, they do.. usually for the better?
Anyone close knows fairly well that i cannot tolerate...I don't have to mention it here but why was i so so so blind. Your last message Jan 2011 just made me feel that ...and if my number were to change, i don't know if i would do the same. I doubt i can.
I guess, what i faced cannot be undone but what i can do is to get every trace of every bloody thing that reminds me... out of my place! I don't know why i kept some things- the coin bank with hearts and some things from 3 years ago... Well, not anymore. I don't want the image to replay and replay in my head anymore! Its ENOUGH. Its not worth keeping it because in the end, i only end up hurting myself...
Now i understood all the sorries...i guess, i would forgive myself for ever being so dumb. Last time i would be!!
ありがと、わたし いま わかります。。 さよなら。。
Monday, January 24, 2011
Saturday, January 22, 2011
难道有钱能这么玩弄女生的感情吗？
一向来不管好友怎么看你，我都相信你做的决定都为我好。我还以为当时16岁的我，认识18岁的你会有那么一点的单纯也给我真爱。。可是，我错了而且错的很糟糕！
今天中午，我始终看到了您的真面目。。当你走进的时候，我刚好转身看到你。在那此刻，我看着你走过 但不是一个人。。迁着你的左手然而是你的前女友！在那时，我想我不愧是那个最笨的！气，也只能忍着。想哭，也只能默默的微笑。
我走到您的面前，却发现那女生已在我面前。 不错嘛，您应该是有看到我才离她那么远。。反应还挺快吗！但我看见的，无法再改变那对我最残酷的事实。。 人都会生气而当时在您旁边的水竟然引诱了生气的我。。但在公共场面，我冷静了。所以，在你们之间看到你们离对方那么远的那情形令我感到十分搞笑。
也许，笨的不只我一个，但至少我知道也有玩弄女人的男人存在！
我竟然相信您说自己还不能谈恋爱，没时间，要回国。。我怎么瞎得这么厉害？ 这次，我明白原来你不是完美的因为你也不是我想得那么痴情， 那么爱我。。。所以，我感到那一点点的伤心难过。第三次，我还是选择相信你但我后悔当时那么笨！
有钱就能把女人当玩具吗？好玩吗？
我所盼望的是一个只爱一个女人的男人。。真的这么难吗？我看，这一次虽然是个很痛的教训，但至少我学会了你的真面目。那也许是我最后的笨！我想，若你会感到那么一点点的愧疚至少不要在玩弄女生对你的感情。
谢谢您的教训。我明白了...
今天中午，我始终看到了您的真面目。。当你走进的时候，我刚好转身看到你。在那此刻，我看着你走过 但不是一个人。。迁着你的左手然而是你的前女友！在那时，我想我不愧是那个最笨的！气，也只能忍着。想哭，也只能默默的微笑。
我走到您的面前，却发现那女生已在我面前。 不错嘛，您应该是有看到我才离她那么远。。反应还挺快吗！但我看见的，无法再改变那对我最残酷的事实。。 人都会生气而当时在您旁边的水竟然引诱了生气的我。。但在公共场面，我冷静了。所以，在你们之间看到你们离对方那么远的那情形令我感到十分搞笑。
也许，笨的不只我一个，但至少我知道也有玩弄女人的男人存在！
我竟然相信您说自己还不能谈恋爱，没时间，要回国。。我怎么瞎得这么厉害？ 这次，我明白原来你不是完美的因为你也不是我想得那么痴情， 那么爱我。。。所以，我感到那一点点的伤心难过。第三次，我还是选择相信你但我后悔当时那么笨！
有钱就能把女人当玩具吗？好玩吗？
我所盼望的是一个只爱一个女人的男人。。真的这么难吗？我看，这一次虽然是个很痛的教训，但至少我学会了你的真面目。那也许是我最后的笨！我想，若你会感到那么一点点的愧疚至少不要在玩弄女生对你的感情。
谢谢您的教训。我明白了...
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Hey friends, i know i haven't been blogging at all!!
Here's what happened lately.. After school started, projects started and one of them involves:
My New Blogshop @ http://fashionscene.miyoc.com
*Do support us if you like our products!! :)
Love,
Stacie :)
Here's what happened lately.. After school started, projects started and one of them involves:
My New Blogshop @ http://fashionscene.miyoc.com
*Do support us if you like our products!! :)
Love,
Stacie :)
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Dad called to say: No Pink VIVAZ in SG!!! :( At least, ruby is still close to pink so i'll make do with it...
Walked around looking for two things today...found one but not the other!! will try to find it again though.. :) After which, met Shila who came later to go to her place and the funny thing was that i was trying to contain her surprise birthday party so she got the shock of her life when she went home!! hahaha..
Walked around looking for two things today...found one but not the other!! will try to find it again though.. :) After which, met Shila who came later to go to her place and the funny thing was that i was trying to contain her surprise birthday party so she got the shock of her life when she went home!! hahaha.. Thanks for inviting me to your place so that i don't have to cook up an excuse babe! :P
Love,
Stacie
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Enjoyment week~~
Tuesday:
Mom felt that i was a nuisance to be staying at home while shirleen was studying so she dragged me out for sweets! YIPEE! :) So happy... ate apple crumble with icecream & warm chocolate pudding.. It was heaven~~
Wednesday:
Went out to look at phones... Its time for me to pick a new phone!! The iphone 4 definitely looks tempting...but i will not succumb to temptation!! だめだよ！！いつも どても ほしです。お金が あります でも Iphone 一年あとで だいなしに する。けいやくは 二年ですよ！買いませんでした。
Thursday:
Went out with two babes and we had Lunch @ Momoji, there was an offer of 15% off the student price if you had a PAssion card. The thing was, cute peiching didn't know that so she left her card at home but i knew that she would keep ranting about not knowing there was a discount. So i did something that was embarrassing to them. I walked up to the guy who had already paid infront of us at the cashier and asked "Excuse me, i'm sorry but can we borrow your PAssion Card please?" The guy looked so stern that i felt that i was like a little kid about to be scolded but he just looked at me and asked "are they-the cashier and staff- okay with it?" so No harm asking right, girls?
I don't find it embarrassing because its better than you keep harping "What if i could enjoy the discount?" The three of us enjoyed a happy lunch as a result of that! :)
So we walked into the restaurant and i looked at the desserts, I was so tempted!!
We took the shisamo, salmon fish in soy sauce first... then after that, something caught my eye... YES! RIGHT! 刺身！Too bad both of them don't really enjoy! I wouldn't say it was the best i tasted but acceptable i guess.
After that, i went straight for chawanmushi!! The bowl was too hot for me to hold so when i was trying, one of the staff pulled out the whole tray as i stared in shock and he placed it right on my saucer. I thought he wanted to take the whole tray out.. Speaking of chivalry~~ でも、ハンサムじゃありません。。
Dessert time came and Pehching wanted mochi when i told her it did not looked like mochi! She took the crystal one and i tooked the red bean paste on plain mochi! Her expression when she ate the crystal "mochi" was PRICELESS!!! HAHAHA! かわいい！:P
We watched THE TOWN Movie @ Cathay which was action packed and pretty humorous when robbers dressed up as "Sisters" of a church after the movie, we had Dinner @ Beancurd Place and chatted before we parted for home. :) HAD A FUN DAY INDEED! Thanks Love & PQ, lovely babes!
Went to grandma's last night! Funny topics were brought up...hahaha! :P especially shirleen's bio question..they laughed. at. me. of. course.
Well, i'm going off to westmall at 4＋＋ to look out for my Sony Ericsson VIVAZ! :)
あの、わたしの妹とは いつも かんこくのおんがく「I want you back -Secret-」は します！
SHILA, Get well soon!!!
Jia You for school!!! :)
Mom felt that i was a nuisance to be staying at home while shirleen was studying so she dragged me out for sweets! YIPEE! :) So happy... ate apple crumble with icecream & warm chocolate pudding.. It was heaven~~
Wednesday:
Went out to look at phones... Its time for me to pick a new phone!! The iphone 4 definitely looks tempting...but i will not succumb to temptation!! だめだよ！！いつも どても ほしです。お金が あります でも Iphone 一年あとで だいなしに する。けいやくは 二年ですよ！買いませんでした。
Thursday:
Went out with two babes and we had Lunch @ Momoji, there was an offer of 15% off the student price if you had a PAssion card. The thing was, cute peiching didn't know that so she left her card at home but i knew that she would keep ranting about not knowing there was a discount. So i did something that was embarrassing to them. I walked up to the guy who had already paid infront of us at the cashier and asked "Excuse me, i'm sorry but can we borrow your PAssion Card please?" The guy looked so stern that i felt that i was like a little kid about to be scolded but he just looked at me and asked "are they-the cashier and staff- okay with it?" so No harm asking right, girls?
I don't find it embarrassing because its better than you keep harping "What if i could enjoy the discount?" The three of us enjoyed a happy lunch as a result of that! :)
So we walked into the restaurant and i looked at the desserts, I was so tempted!!
We took the shisamo, salmon fish in soy sauce first... then after that, something caught my eye... YES! RIGHT! 刺身！Too bad both of them don't really enjoy! I wouldn't say it was the best i tasted but acceptable i guess.
After that, i went straight for chawanmushi!! The bowl was too hot for me to hold so when i was trying, one of the staff pulled out the whole tray as i stared in shock and he placed it right on my saucer. I thought he wanted to take the whole tray out.. Speaking of chivalry~~ でも、ハンサムじゃありません。。
Dessert time came and Pehching wanted mochi when i told her it did not looked like mochi! She took the crystal one and i tooked the red bean paste on plain mochi! Her expression when she ate the crystal "mochi" was PRICELESS!!! HAHAHA! かわいい！:P
We watched THE TOWN Movie @ Cathay which was action packed and pretty humorous when robbers dressed up as "Sisters" of a church after the movie, we had Dinner @ Beancurd Place and chatted before we parted for home. :) HAD A FUN DAY INDEED! Thanks Love & PQ, lovely babes!
Went to grandma's last night! Funny topics were brought up...hahaha! :P especially shirleen's bio question..they laughed. at. me. of. course.
Well, i'm going off to westmall at 4＋＋ to look out for my Sony Ericsson VIVAZ! :)
あの、わたしの妹とは いつも かんこくのおんがく「I want you back -Secret-」は します！
SHILA, Get well soon!!!
Jia You for school!!! :)
Sunday, October 31, 2010
In Town, Orchard
Invited to Vietnam TMC in SMU Seminar Room for Halloween and it was pretty interestinggg! :) Witches...Monsters.. Pumpkins...... what not... So i was dressed as a white witch! :) Photos- Perhaps soon.
After the event, i decided to go shopping!
I was walking along Orchard Road find the right thing and had been walking for hours before i decided to take a break. I bought french fries and decided to look for a seat. Upon sitting down, the man beside me stared at me as i nibbled on my food... Halfway through the pack of fries, he spoke in the most eerie manner: "Can i be your friend?" I looked at the middle aged man -mind you, he is like 30+/40+ - clad in an old fashioned shirt and casual pants and thought: "Did he just say something like that to me?!!"
So being polite as i could, i said "i'm sorry." not "I'm sorry?!"
I guess he did not hear my intonation clearly as he repeated the question.
I didn't reply him as i did not want to continue the conversation and i moved away from him to my right. I stared at him as he followed suit!! WHAT THE HECK was he doing?
Not believing my eyes, i moved away further only to find him repeating this action. In my mind, i confirmed that he was insane and had probably not taken medication upon release from the Institute of Mental Health when he did that.
Instinctively, to prevent anything from happening to me, i walked away to somewhere else and kept looking behind if he had followed suit! It was so freaky to experience that! Seriously, what just happened?!! I decided the best thing is to brush it aside... Just be wary, girls!
After eating, i shopped further and found something which i might purchase... but i took another break while deciding whether it is worth it. While i was resting, a couple was sitting beside me. The guy spoke in english mixed with mandarin as the lady spoke in mandarin...
Guy: "Hey Come On, after i picked up that ONE call, i became a stranger to you?"
Girl: Keeps Quiet and Ignores him
Guy: "Come On, my friend asked me out only, can't i pick up that call?"
Girl: "You weren't like this in the past..."
Guy: "Now, besides hanging out with you, no one else hangs out with me. No friends, just you. Now that my friend has asked me out, can't i hang out with them?"
Girl: Keeps Quiet again [in silence]
This is every couple's struggle if they do not set things straight once they become as one... Then again, if you give him too much freedom- will you lose him to other girls? Then again, if you don't give him freedom, does it mean that you don't trust him? Yes, you need to give him freedom- his space to do things that he used to- but is there any boundary? That is where INSECURITY COMES IN!
Women tend to feel more insecure than men and men don't sense it sometimes... When a woman says: "Its nothing!" Actually, it is something.. Its just that they find it hard to broach the subject to you!
I've seen, heard, felt the things that some men do to women, so i guess i'd be more aware!
SMP- PMS. Nice acronym to use @ V. TMC!
I guess, i gave too much such that i didn't know what happened in the end that was the reason...
But then again, i didn't like to probe into everything...
So all couples surviving out there, CONGRATULATIONS!! :) Keep it going! :)
After the event, i decided to go shopping!
I was walking along Orchard Road find the right thing and had been walking for hours before i decided to take a break. I bought french fries and decided to look for a seat. Upon sitting down, the man beside me stared at me as i nibbled on my food... Halfway through the pack of fries, he spoke in the most eerie manner: "Can i be your friend?" I looked at the middle aged man -mind you, he is like 30+/40+ - clad in an old fashioned shirt and casual pants and thought: "Did he just say something like that to me?!!"
So being polite as i could, i said "i'm sorry." not "I'm sorry?!"
I guess he did not hear my intonation clearly as he repeated the question.
I didn't reply him as i did not want to continue the conversation and i moved away from him to my right. I stared at him as he followed suit!! WHAT THE HECK was he doing?
Not believing my eyes, i moved away further only to find him repeating this action. In my mind, i confirmed that he was insane and had probably not taken medication upon release from the Institute of Mental Health when he did that.
Instinctively, to prevent anything from happening to me, i walked away to somewhere else and kept looking behind if he had followed suit! It was so freaky to experience that! Seriously, what just happened?!! I decided the best thing is to brush it aside... Just be wary, girls!
After eating, i shopped further and found something which i might purchase... but i took another break while deciding whether it is worth it. While i was resting, a couple was sitting beside me. The guy spoke in english mixed with mandarin as the lady spoke in mandarin...
Guy: "Hey Come On, after i picked up that ONE call, i became a stranger to you?"
Girl: Keeps Quiet and Ignores him
Guy: "Come On, my friend asked me out only, can't i pick up that call?"
Girl: "You weren't like this in the past..."
Guy: "Now, besides hanging out with you, no one else hangs out with me. No friends, just you. Now that my friend has asked me out, can't i hang out with them?"
Girl: Keeps Quiet again [in silence]
This is every couple's struggle if they do not set things straight once they become as one... Then again, if you give him too much freedom- will you lose him to other girls? Then again, if you don't give him freedom, does it mean that you don't trust him? Yes, you need to give him freedom- his space to do things that he used to- but is there any boundary? That is where INSECURITY COMES IN!
Women tend to feel more insecure than men and men don't sense it sometimes... When a woman says: "Its nothing!" Actually, it is something.. Its just that they find it hard to broach the subject to you!
I've seen, heard, felt the things that some men do to women, so i guess i'd be more aware!
SMP- PMS. Nice acronym to use @ V. TMC!
I guess, i gave too much such that i didn't know what happened in the end that was the reason...
But then again, i didn't like to probe into everything...
So all couples surviving out there, CONGRATULATIONS!! :) Keep it going! :)
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